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Friday, 5 July 2019 01:23
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Fandom: Doctor Zhivago
Rating: G
Characters: Lara Antipova, Pasha Antipov, various original background characters
Primary Pairings: Lara Antipova/Pasha Antipov
Word Count: 539

General Summary: One morning, Lara comes to Pasha with an usual request.

Author’s Note: A prompt from June 2019 - "Teach me to fight."


            Pasha doesn’t ask questions when Lara comes to him one morning, early even by his standards, her face drawn and pale, and insists that he teach her how to fight. Instead, he finishes dressing and takes her down the road to another house, knocking on the door until the shutters opened on one of the upper windows, a figure leaning out of it. “Who is it? Don’t you know what time it is?”
            “It’s me!” Pasha called up to the figure in the window. “I need to talk to Anya!”
            There was a groan from above them, and the shutters closed. A few minutes later, the door opened and a young man that Lara recognised as one of Pasha’s friends – she couldn’t remember his name – ushered them in. “Pasha, I know we’re friends, but you can’t just pound on my door at all hours!”
            “Tolya, listen.” Pasha let go of Lara’s hand for the first time since she’d come to his rooms in order to put both hands on the other’s shoulders. “Would you have preferred I climbed in through the window?”
            Tolya pulled a face that said that he didn’t doubt the implied threat, and didn’t particularly relish the idea of waking up in the middle of the night to Pasha scaling the building and crawling through his window like some kind of creature of the night. “Sit down. Anya’s still getting up.” As they both sat down and he began distributing cups of a dark, strong coffee that threatened to make Lara’s eyes water, he glanced over at Lara and then back to Pasha. “What do you need to see Anya for at this hour anyway?”
            Almost as if on cue, Anya emerged from another room. She was a stocky woman who was – to Lara’s surprise – several years older than the rest of them, but around Lara’s height, her dark hair tied back with a scarf. She looked from Tolya, to Pasha, then, cocking her head, shifted her gaze to Lara, taking her in with a coolness that was slightly unnerving, but Lara met her eyes with her own, holding eye contact as steadily as she could manage.
            “You want to learn to fight?” Her voice was higher than Lara had expected, with all the authority of a particularly strict schoolteacher, and it was all she could do to nod silently in affirmation.
            “How did you figure that?” Tolya looked from one woman to the other, then at Pasha.
            Anya snorted. “There’s only so many reasons he brings anyone under a certain height around, and it’s because he’s too tall to do it effectively himself.” She broke eye contact with Lara, turning instead to Pasha. “A word, Pasha.”
            As soon as they were out of earshot of their companions, Anya gripped Pasha’s arm tightly. “Who’s hurting her? Her father?”
            Pasha shook his head, unsurprised that Anya was able to read the situation so easily. “Her father’s dead.”
            “Then who?”
            He shook his head again, his mouth twisting into a grimace. “I don’t know. She doesn’t want to tell me.” When she raised an eyebrow, he looked into his cup instead. “I won’t force her to tell me, Anya. I don’t ask questions she doesn’t want to answer.”
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Fandom: Doctor Zhivago
Rating: T
Characters: Pasha Antipov, Lara Antipova, Viktor Komarovsky (referenced)
Primary Pairings: Pasha Antipov/Lara Antipova
Secondary Pairings: Lara Antipova/Viktor Komarovsky (referenced)
Warnings: Referenced Past Abuse and Sexual Abuse
Word Count: 347 

General Summary: For almost as long as she can remember, Lara's wings had been clipped - her ability to escape hindered by caution and the threat of something far worse than the imprisonment she was already under. Anything else was alien to her. 

Author’s Note: Another February 2017 prompt, this time for 'unconditional love.'


The concept of unconditional love wasn’t something that she felt she completely grasped, or at the very least, it took her longer than she suspected it should have. As long as she could remember, love and affection – and everything that came with them – had a price. Behaving, or smiling when she didn’t want to, or making herself look presentable enough – “Pull your stocking up!” – could buy her a measure of love and gentleness as a child. As she got older, she found it took considerably more effort for much less reward. Hold still. Don’t cry out. Slip out without waking your mother and don’t breathe a word to that boy who trails after you. The conditions were endless and stifling, but while she doubted, so much of her found it hard to believe that there was ever such a thing between people as love that didn’t come with stipulations.

With Pasha, things had started to change, and the doubts that had been there all along gained some measure of footing in her mind. If anything, the only conditions and stipulations were the ones that he placed on himself and that, for a time, she placed on herself as well. But there was no reservation in his willingness to love her, nothing he asked of her that she hadn’t offered herself. If she asked him to stay for hours and stroke her hair, and he was able, he did. If she wanted him to leave her alone for days at a time, he didn’t question her – even if some part of her wanted him to. So some form of unconditional love, she decided, did exist, and so for the better part of a year, the only thing keeping her trapped was a sense of uncertainty and fear that had been carefully instilled in her for the better part of a decade. She could, she thought, bear it for as long as she had to, provided that it kept their relationship safe from harm, but should anything threaten that – she didn’t have a plan, but she would form one.

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